I don't normally do this whole "let me catch you up on my life thing," because I really just like to rave and rant, but I thought I'd give it a go. 2013 was probably the most challenging year of my life yet. This past year is the year that I had to grow up. Nothing will be the same after this year. This year had been a tiny glimpse of what seems to lye in front of me. Starting 2013 was exciting. It was the year that I graduated High School! I was so excited to graduate, but I had the worst case of senioritis known to man. I'm pretty sure that I had it so bad other kids were catching it by looking at me. I was a pretty lazy senior, and let me tell you-- it was great. Graduation was spectacular! It was grand. I felt so much support and love around me as both me and my dad had the opportunity to walk across the same stage, within the same month, and accept diplomas. (Different diplomas obviously.)
It was a good time, but little did I know what summer had in store. Don't get me wrong, summer was great! I made a lot of new friends, which is pretty cool. I also grew as a person. I spectated things to come, and I tried and tried to prepare myself for these things. The only thing about summer that wasn't so great was my job. I'm pretty sure that I worked at a restaurant that had a huge turn over rate for managers. It was like there was a new manager everyday and none of them were consistent with each other! One of them tells me the right way to do something, and the next day another manager told me it was wrong and a different right way! Basically I was always getting lost in instruction, but after a while it was easy to keep up with all of their quirks when it came to how things got done. Then finally in September, about a month after all of my friends left for college, college finally started for me!
College, well college is crazy. I love it, but I will admit that it was a huge roller coaster. Starting college was the worst. I was leaving ALL of my friends and family to go to a new state that I didn't know, full of people I didn't know. That, that my friends is scary. But I did it, and I went into it with a big smile on my face and it was awesome. It was much better than I could have imagined! Even though I went into it basically alone, I had a bunch of people around me who were also alone...kinda. So basically they were stuck with me.
But all joking aside, it was so fun to start, everyone was kind (some people too kind) but for the most part it was grand. This past semester I faced some serious ups and downs. Ranging from getting sick the second week of school, to missing home more than anything in the world, to only having a total of 56 cents under my name for a week. The good news is that I passed! Not only that, but I learned. I learned that life isn't easy but with hard work, you can do it. I learned to save money, because it sucks to be broke. (Also don't get speeding tickets!) I learned that other people aren't always going to be nice, but to keep my head up and decide to not let other peoples attitude affect me. (That one was the hardest.) I learned that sometimes we feel alone, but that state of mind is only put in my life so that I can grow and learn. I learned that Heavenly Father answers every prayer, but not always the way we want him to. I learned that some hard times also have to be spread out into long periods of time, that way I can really learn from the hardship. I learned that if you miss choir ten times, you will get a C. I learned that women's choir isn't fun. (Actually, its awful.) Let's just say, I learned. After this last semester was all said and done, I finally got to come home and be with my family for two whole weeks!! Two weeks was probably more than I could have asked for, but to be honest two weeks is not long enough. As some people may or may not know, my wonderful dad has landed an amazing job in Kansas. I am so proud of him. At the same time, I have made the decision to not live in Kansas with them once this next college semester is over and that is scary. My parents have given me the best life possible. They have loved me every second of every day and they have only ever done what's best for me. Although I know that they will always be that way to me, I am terrified of the fact that they will be in a completely different state as me for the next five maybe longer years. Yes, we will visit, but it will never be the same. I've been told though, that change is good. This is a good change actually it's a great change! I'm so happy for what great things lie ahead for my wonderful parents, I know that they will do amazing things. Yet tomorrow when I get on the plane, I get on knowing that this chapter of my life, this chapter I've known for the past eighteen years is over. It's all over, it won't be like it is now ever again. Who's to say it won't be better? No one. It may be better, but I get on that plane tomorrow knowing that I have to grow up now. It's my time to figure out what plan it is that heavenly father has in store for me. It's time for me to grow as a person in this world. Most people felt this way when they left for college probably, but I always knew where home was even in college. But now, I'm not going to have this house with two wonderful parents again. When I get on the plane, I leave everything I know. Is time for me to find what Heavenly Father has in store for me. 2014 is going to be a year of discovery. I am looking so forward to this year, but let me tell you, I am going to miss these years. But, this upcoming year is going to be full of excitement and adventure I can just feel it. I am so excited for what Heavenly Father has in store for me. I am so grateful for everything I've ever had and learned, but now it's time for me to start and new chapter. Here's to the year that will change everything! :)
